Accountability Mentor Sisters
My name is Julie and I’ve been working on fixing myself for as long as I can remember. It’s been my main focus my whole life excluding much else. I would tell myself, once you fix the reason you have a weight problem then you can focus on other more interesting things. When I started this year I was still working on myself. (Which makes 50 years of trying) I couldn’t remember when I last did something out of the pure pleasure of it.
I have completed goals in my life other than weight loss, which I never perfected. I won some horse shows; got my Master’s degree in Oriental Medicine, have a23-year marriage and two grown kids. But all the while preoccupied with always needing something to be fixed. I‘ve done every self-help and dieting program out there, twice. And nothing stuck or helped me achieve permanent change.
I’ve known Debbie for years and finally decided to work with her this year after going through a year of the most anxiety I’ve ever been through. I was paralyzed with fear after watching my father die over a long six-month period. I was so anxious that my pulse got to a dangerously high level. At the worst point, I couldn’t leave my bed for a few days because I thought my heart would explode. I also could watch anything negative on T.V. without getting an anxiety attack. I wasn’t doing well and finally decided to go to a psychiatrist for help. I got lots of Xanax but no real help to get to the root of the problem.
Then I went to Debbie’s intro weekend and was brave enough to stand up and tell everyone how scared I was to talk in public. That was the start of me working through her process of releasing my fears. The Free, Clear and ConnectedRetreat was the most intense, difficult, releasing, and freeing time I’ve ever been through. I left it a changed person.
I now no longer take any medicine for anxiety and my anxiety is almost completely gone. I have been able to talk in a more mature voice and am able to speak in public without palpitations. My food issues don’t take center stage anymore. I am not using food or my body issues to determine my self-worth. I also realized that I am not in control of others, which is making family life so much more enjoyable. I have plans to travel in the next few months, which is a big step from being scared to leave my room when I started the program. As issues come up I have a plan that is bigger than myself to turn to and steps to help me release the fear I used to get stuck in.
I am now living to discover what I enjoy in life. I am learning to trust my intuition, and have trusting and loving relationships. I am experiencing being creative, how to laugh, Love and be in the moment. It has been an amazing change for being brave and giving it my all for only half a year. I can’t wait to see what amazing things will be happening in the next 6 months.