“I don’t even think about food anymore.” That’s what Michele said to me yesterday.
4 months earlier, she’d attended a free workshop of mine where I spoke about going from rules, rigidity and obsession to ease, intuition and trust around food. And she told me later in a private call, “you were speaking to me. I need that.”
Shortly thereafter, she became a client.
Michele was a working mom of two who appeared to others as positive, intelligent and kind. But inside, she was battling a lifelong bingeing problem, low self confidence and a debilitating lack of inner trust.
“I don’t know how to trust my gut,” she told me.
She was good with anything that had to do with being logical and her ability to be a resource for others. In that area she felt more self assured.
But when it came to her life decisions or even what to eat, she would hold back, get stressed, second guess and doubt herself.
And this showed up in her relationships too.
She felt responsible for other people’s feelings. Repeatedly with different relationships, she would find herself trying to present what she thought others wanted and constructed her words in a way that wouldn’t upset others. She contorted herself from her authentic being. And without even knowing why, this drove her to eat more.
And she also struggled with that all too familiar obsession, anxiety and overwhelm cycle that would take her to the food. And then her bingeing would cause so much guilt and shame that it would trigger more anxiety and overwhelm.
Needless to say, when Michele started my program, she was so done with how her relationship with food was holding her back from being the role model and woman she wanted to be.
And she was done with instant fixes, extreme diets, hamster wheel workouts and magic pills.
She wanted something lasting.
She wanted something real.
And she was ready to do the deep work, in order to have it.
I tell my clients, I will meet them and go in 150% to support them on their path. But I need them to meet me with their own level of willingness.
I can’t teach willingness. That’s an ingredient that has to already be there.
And with Michele, that was definitely present. And it was that willingness that allowed her to go from frustrated to free in 4 months.
“I’m blown away,” she said to me yesterday. I’m feeling so ok with listening to my intuition. I feel solid. And I’m not so concerned anymore with other people’s interpretations of me.”
I felt like I was talking to a different person. The Michele I knew from just a few months earlier was doubtful and skeptical. But this women was clear, solid, confident in her choices and connected to her truth.
Wow, I thought. Another woman. Another miracle.
I didn’t think I could feel any more honor, awe and gratitude for the work I get to do with women, until Michele uttered these words…
“I’m sensing that I’m meant to help and guide other women. Even though the thought of it scares me, I’m feeling like I need to support more women on their path. Although I don’t know what that looks like.”
Well Michele, all I can say is that your willingness to share your story right here is already impacting thousands. Love you sister <3
In dedication of all things raw, real and recovered,