I felt bad because people wanted to connect with me, but I just felt distant, and frankly, they got in the way between me and food.
I didn’t want to give up the food – it was safe. It was my friend. It was how I dealt with my anxiety. It was my comfort.
But at the same time, a deeper part of me knew that it was also holding me back in every area of my life – my business, my relationships and my own self confidence.
I’d get so embarrassed about the way I was with food. On the outside everyone saw me as healthy, positive and inspiring. They didn’t know that inside I was in constant obsession and anxiety about what to eat.
I was constantly thinking about and trying to control my food – what should I eat, what I just ate, what I should have eaten….It was hard to be present.
And then there was the inauthenticity factor. I felt like such a fraud – especially with my work as a health and fitness expert.
All I wanted was to step into a new part of my journey – to get free from that last bit of the control and OCD tendencies that were keeping me stuck.
But part of me wondered, can I really truly be free?
I’d tried practically everything – therapy, self help, diets, exercise plans, personal development, sheer willpower and discipline, spiritual practices. I didn’t want to fail again and feel even worse about myself.
I didn’t know what I was missing but I also didn’t want to ask anyone for help because I figure I was the expert and should be able to figure this out on my own. Besides, I didn’t want to bother others or get judged.
So I stuffed it down and suffered for years.
Eventually I got the gift of desperation.
It wasn’t that my life looked all that bad from the outside. In fact, my life was pretty great and I had lots to be grateful for.
But inside I got to that emotional bottom. That place beyond the overwhelm, anxiety and obsession – where it’s just empty, sad and alone.
For the first time, I was over needing to be right, look good or figure it out on my own.
I just wanted freedom.
And I was ready to try anything to get it.
They say when the student is ready the teacher appears and that’s what happened to me.
Being sick and tired of struggling worked to my advantage because it gave me the willingness to finally get over myself and ask for help.
That’s when I met my first spiritual mentor.
She showed me what I was missing that was keeping me stuck and how to get free from what was blocking me so I could access my inner guidance.
From that place I began living authentically and congruently – trusting myself and making healthy choices. And the food obsession, bingeing and addiction fell away.
I stopped thinking about food all the time. Food became food and not something to manage my emotions. My weight stopped fluctuating and I felt peace and calm around food for the first time.
With the constant food thoughts gone, I got all this extra time and energy – and because I was now living authentically – I had the clarity and confidence to fill that time helping others, which made me feel even more connected and purposeful.
My life started expanding in all kinds of ways.
I opened a pilates studio dedicated to helping women connect with and love their bodies…
I created a healing jewelry brand that used custom-selected crystals and power pieces to support women on their spiritual path of freedom…
I started mentoring women all over the world, teaching them the freedom formula to getting free and staying free from food addiction…
I spoke my truth to women’s groups, in health and fitness circles and amongst my entrepreneurial peers and associates so that my experience could help others on their path of healing and freedom…
And the more I did these things, the more free, light and connected I felt.
I developed the capacity to be present with people and have real, meaningful connections, and I discovered that I actually liked just being me.
For the first time in my life, I felt at home inside myself and comfortable in my own skin.
I never knew it could be like that. I never knew that I could have this much freedom.
Which is why I’m so passionate to help other women who struggle just like I did know get free from their food prison.
Because I know how it feels to think you have to do it alone, and to not speak up because you don’t want to be judged.
I know how it feels to fear that you’ll always have to deal with this and that freedom can’t happen for you.
So I want to tell you that’s not true. It can happen for you.
And I can show you how.
I have witnessed women just like you – who’d tried everything – who were convinced that it could never happen for them still get free.
Jackie doubted if she’d ever get free. She was done with the diets, the obsession, the constant thinking and planning…she was sick and tired of trying to figure it out but she didn’t know what to do.
When she saw a Freedom From Food Addiction event I was hosting, part of her thought, “oh yeah, what are you going to tell me that I haven’t already heard a million times before.”
But part of her also figured she could at least get some info and meet some new people.
Besides she was always doing everything on her own – she already felt alone enough as it was! So she decided to come.
While there Jackie met a community of like-minded women who totally got her and who she could be real with.
She also got clarity around why she was getting stuck, what she was missing and what she needed to do to actually have lasting freedom.
Within a few short months, with the community, clarity, and connection she’s always wanted and never knew where to get, Jackie got free from her food addiction and today gets to fill her time helping other women get free from their food obsessions and addictions too.
Watching women like Jackie light up and go on to light up other women is why I do what I do.
I simply want to see more women lit up. Because when women light up, together we form a global constellation of lights who have the capacity to light up the whole world and everyone in it.
And that’s a world I want to live in.
Which is why I got inspired to host the Freedom Embodied LIVE event May 27|28 in Carlsbad, CA.
This event is not only designed specially for women coaches, entrepreneurs, leaders and perfectionists who want more freedom from food.
It’s also designed to serve as a place where like-mined women can connect with each other, get real, be seen, feel heard and realize that they are not alone.
Freedom is no fun if you still feel alone. Which is why Freedom Embodied LIVE is about giving you the community, clarity and connection you always wanted and never knew where to get.
So if that’s something you want more of, I invite you to click this link to learn more: Freedom Embodied LIVE Event May 27|28
I’m taking a stand for you.
Because that’s what I needed when I was stuck – someone who believed in me who gave me hope and shone the light on the path to freedom.
So consider me your pilot lighter, who’s here to reignite your spark so you can light up with freedom and go on to light up other women 😉
And for those of you who’re ready to get out of the pain and frustration and get on the path to more freedom now…
Complete the Freedom Embodied LIVE Assessment below. This assessment will help you get clarity on where you’re at, what you want and what you need. (It will just take a couple of minutes.)
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In dedication of all things raw, real and recovered,
p.s. To learn more about what to expect at Freedom Embodied LIVE and the results women have gotten from attending, click this link: Freedom Embodied LIVE May 27|28.